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Name: Paula Haley aka Isis

Email: Paulasharihaley@gmail.com

“Rev. Maudlin was asked to officiate at my mom, Monica Wray’s memorial service, June 2018. Considering that the Rev did not know my mother but she became to my children and I a Mom, Grandmother, Pastor and counselor. She is a phenomenal woman of God. The Rev never began a discussion without first praying about it; she did an excellent job with the execution of the word of God; Friends and family were inspired, comforted and encouraged with her message at mom memorial service. We are very thankful to God for Rev Maudlin and pray that The Lord will continue to fulfill his purpose through her. God bless her and Husband!! Love Isis and kids.”

When my mom died it was so hard -  she was 98 years! Regardless of her age, Mom's death was difficult to deal with, but as I knew she was ill for a long time it was less jarring.  Mom and I had spoken many times so I knew where her faith was and it made it easier for me to accept her death. She said the lord had given her a great life and she was grateful. All of her brothers, sisters and best friends were gone and she was ready to go home. 

She loved her daughter-in-law and enjoyed having her grandkids around. After we moved away she really missed them all and often wondered why they didn’t call her it broke her heart. Even on her last days, she wanted to know when her daughter and grandchildren were coming to see her. 

It pained me because I knew they couldn’t, it still does sometimes. I told her how much they loved her and she squeezed my hand and nodded her head. I still tear up when I hear her favorite songs.  I was glad to be around to be able to spend some quality time with her near the end of her life.  I am so thankful to my wife and son who insisted I go to see her 'sooner rather than later.' Our families lived in two different counties. I remember that when my dad died I was on vacation so I didn’t get to see him before he died. Dad and I did a lot together - as long as he was doing something with the car I was right there with him. I guess that’s why I always wanted to be in communication with my son and have him around.  I supposed I just wanted to have the same kind of relationship with him, but am reminded that he is an adult and needs his space. I wanted my son to be around all the time, and maybe wanting to have him around all the time is expecting too much, but when he left home, I felt alone. 

Honestly it still hurts and can be very depressing when I think about the family I have lost. Grief can be extremely difficult to handle at times. 

My sister-in-law was the worst. I didn’t have a sister and her death hit me extremely hard. It happened so quickly that it seems as if I did not have time to breathe.  I was sure she was going to be around for a very long time. We had lots of fun and she became the sister I always wanted. She looked out for me like a big sister would, and even lived with us.

I still struggle with my sister's death - she was one of a kind and is greatly missed. I have made her room my resting place to relax, watch tv or sometimes sleep. I see her pictures around the house and I have those wonderful memories we shared. A couple of Saturdays ago I was doing some cleaning and listening to gospel music and found myself looking through an album and the tears just started to flow. 

Here on this site, I find myself going through the scriptures; reading the daily devotions, the encouragement from the blog posts and just knowing there is someone out there who understands my pain and how much it hurts to have lost so much, it a real blessing.

I thank God everyday for the time I got to spend with my family. They will always be loved and remembered; their memories will never fade. 

God bless you all and I pray that you will hold on to your faith.  At CoLMRW you can find great support - you do not need to go through the pain alone.